The Husky and His White Cat Shizun: Erha He Ta De Bai Mao Shizun (Novel) Vol. 3 Erha He Ta De Bai Mao Shizun

The most gutwrenching throw out the window piece of literature & I loved every second of it...

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This book has made it very clear that I must be a masochist because the way my heart was torn to irreparable pieces and the way I sobbed and simultaneously loved it is seriously concerning. Small warning because my review is not spoiler free, I am cursing everything. Once again cried over food related incidents. Shi Mei’s wontons being Shizun’s after the flower mayhem… all this damn time? So when Wanning made them when Shi Mei died and Mo Ran threw them in anger because no one could make them again, they had always been Wanning’s? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? Genuinely never been more heartbroken. I could so vividly and visually SEE Wanning crawling up those steps bloodied, and then Mo Ran thinking that man didn’t care for him at all? He was dying and dragged himself for you for THREE THOUSAND STEPS and you tell me that? Also Mo Ran cradling a lantern Wanning has me in so many tears. It’s so sweet in this hellish book and the way Wanning so easily went with him. I feel so sane. Every time Mo Ran begged for Wanning to come with him in general or to go back with him or that he’d do anything and even leave Sisheng Peak if Wanning wished it as long as he came home? Slaughtered me right there. I was so ready to throw this book out my window constantly while reading. Mo Ran crying and apologising constantly and saying he would listen and not do wrong anymore I SWEAR WHAT THE HELL? Saying he’ll make all these sweet treats for him? Taking out the things in food that Wanning doesn’t like to give to him? Describing him as beautiful constantly? ALL THE HAND HOLDING? I am a puddle on the floor. Also marriage??? Wanning being a potential concubine? Lord I was an absolute disastrous mess. Baby Mo Ran had me in literal tears on my work break. There’s so much heartbreak in this book but the way he gently asks for literal scraps of food and is beaten for it and then tries to reach for just a little and it’s all ruined in front of him? Thinking these people would rather ruin food than feed someone who needs it? A child? After he asked so softly and then asked again if the dogs didn’t want it. The amount of anger I felt on his behalf and the amount of sadness… I genuinely think this will be on my mind for so damn long and I’ll be miserable every time I remember it. So much of this story broke me but this stands out to me so much… And I don’t know if I’m alone in this, I kinda feel like I am, but I feel so bad for Rong Jiu. I always had a soft spot for him, even if he’s such a small side character and was flawed, but when he showed up again my heart shattered all over. To find out how he’d died, that he’d nearly bought his freedom, that he’d thought he could be loved, that jealousy he feels of seeing it for someone else, lord it hurt me so badly. To see what he’d resort to and accept as a means to survive, to be used in such horrible ways and take it, I felt awful. I know he tries to manipulate Wanning when he originally thought to go with them (and I truly believe for a moment he planned to go with), and even though he betrays them again, I can’t find it in me to hate him? I actually feel such sorrow for him. I don’t know if he’ll reappear again (I doubt it), but I really wish we knew what happened to him. Will the ghost king ruin him now? Or will he manage? Will he never have a chance at reincarnation? I honestly think he deserves a second chance to live. He’s simply desperate to survive and clings to those he thinks are most likely to guarantee him the best of the little he’s given, even if it means hurting himself. And I really hoped and ached for him to go with them and get that chance. Knowing he was left behind (even though I know this was his fault and could have likely been avoided), it leaves me just hollow and sad for him. He trusted someone he thought had loved him in both lifetimes, and he's just left and treated like he's worthless. His entire story is a heartbreaking tragedy. BUT ALSO HIS ACTIONS LEADING TO THE MOMENT WHERE MO RAN BEGS AND SAYS HE’LL GET OUT OF WANNING’S LIFE AS LONG AS HE COMES HOME WITH HIM? I’m so fine. One chapter in book two wrecked me terribly. However this book wrecked me pretty much from the moment that damn rift opened. Every page got more brutal, I didn’t get a second to breathe before I wanted to cry and scream and throw these pages in a blender. I'm forever so emotionally fragile over Wanning being the only one left to always believe Mo Ran could snap out of his insanity in their first lifetime. And him waiting outside the palace in the snow freezing on his knees saying he'll stay right there? When he can't handle cold? Throwing myself. I absolutely loved it and it’s my favourite one of them so far. But I swear if I don’t have even a moment to breathe in the next one I will actually reconsider the blender or the window. Beautifully written, even in all its misery. I loved it.