The Way I Used to Be

Irgendwas ist gewaltig schief gegangen, das war nicht der Plan… nachdem der beste Freund ihres Bruders Eden vergewaltigt hat, läuft nichts mehr wie es sollte. Anstatt sich jmd anzuvertrauen lässt sich Eden von Hass und Gefühllosigkeit zerfressen. Eine sehr emotionale Geschichte.

A beautiful book about Eden, a girl fighting her unsolved trauma. Feeling alone. Thinking no one is ever going to belive her or care about her. Never has a book made me want to hug a character, and tell them I do belive them and their friends will do too, like this one did. Pain, hope, friendship. love, hate. This book has it all.

First of all, I appreciate how the author made it not a 'boy saving girl' story and her only turning happy because he she finally found a boyfriend. In the real world, that is not realistic. Instead she turned into this annoying person, that not even I could stand at the beginning. Her behaviour was so off putting that it made me want to quit the book. But the reality is, it was a defence mechanism after what had happened to her. How is a child supposed to know how to deal with this? Her changing throughout all these years just broke my heart and I hope she gets the justice she deserves in the second book.